05-30

i surfed the web using REI & my old battery and ended up getting to fedex around 9:30. there were a bunch of van drivers b.s. ing at the far end of the lot so i parked, pulled out my laptop put it on top of the car and smoked a cigar until they left. i actually fell asleep while reading in the car, and woke 10 ten minutes early for my 3 am call time.
there was an announcement about wanting people to come in 9am-1pm either today or tomorrow. load/unload only with an extra $3 an hour and an in-n-out burger. tempted, since i missed memorial day last monday.
was done by 7:15 today.  working line 1 with 3 trucks and a new guy doing the other side.
surfed again at REI using the new battery . some black guy sitting at one bench within my extension cord length of another seating spot didn't understand the concept of a power strip, so i plugged into another outlet where someone was napping on the bench and cobbled all my lines together so i could sit on a rock nearby. should be finished recharging at 9:45 or so.  i might try a nap over at the park in arcadia. i noticed a lot of cars still parked at that lot after 9pm last night.
after recharging,  went to eaton blanche arund 11 and ate the other half of the von's sandwich. slept until 4pm or so. woke up with a serious case of drymouth. i'm hoping it was from the bag of potato chips i'd bought. actually, i bought 3 of them a number of weeks ago -- buy two get one free. won't do that again. went down to ranch 99 for takeout sushi. ate at eaton blanche, but it's been pretty cold today and i left to recharge at the metro until about 7:30.
i don't want to head down to fedex this early, but then it's cold enough i doubt the latino truck drivers will stay out in the lot for long. i'm contemplating grabbing a couple of mcdoubles on the way, but i think i'd just be medicating with food.

i guess that's as good a segue as any;  during my last session with dave, he posed these questions concerning my childhood: did i feel comforted? did i feel heard? did i feel understood? and the answer is: no, no and no. and i can see now that i comforted myself with food.

argh. it's really feeling cold with the breeze. i'm settling for 90% charge after sneezing.
stopped at mcd's for 2 mcdoubles, but at least i didn't get a soft drink. that's what keeping me from losing weight and also having to urinate more often. well, in a week, i'l be able to stick with just water for 3 weeks. let's see how that plays out.
got to fedex before 9 but was asleep by 10.